A Heart’s Cry:
I feel like you’ve gone silent. Like I’ve been left to sort through the answers on my own. I long for a fresh blowing, a fresh wind of your spirit to blow across my soul. I long for a fresh vision for my life – a firm direction – a knowing. Please tell me you’ve got more planned for me than this – please tell me I have an important part to play in your grand adventure. Please speak to me – let me know you are there – I am desperate – I am listening.
The Still Small Voice:
Be at peace. Let go of your troubled thoughts and rest. I know you and I know what causes you distress. Even the things you dare not utter – I know them and I see you. You will not sit in this tension forever. I will relieve it at the right time, but not a moment before, for that would not serve you well nor serve my good plans for you as I desire. Even now, I know your thoughts – don’t be afraid. I know ALL your thoughts, even the ones that contradict each other. Only I can weave a beautiful tapestry out of your life. The beautiful and the parts you deem ugly or imperfect are all absolutely necessary for the finished piece to have the radiant beauty I have planned for it. This is not all there is. This is not the end, it is in fact, only the beginning. The years ahead will bring such transformation in your life and situation that when you look back you will be astonished. You may think you know what I’m up to, but what your little mind can dream up is very small compared to what I can do. But, don’t stop your dreams. I will shape your desires – as you have asked – but part of my joy is sharing in your experience of creating visions for yourself and partnering with you the way you seek to partner with me. Did you know that? Did you know it goes both ways? You thought you had to kill your desires in order to allow me to work – that is not true! All I ask is that in your desires your consult me and allow me to fine tune them. Don’t hold on to them so tightly that you leave no room for the wonders only I can do. But dream sweet child! I gave you that ability. You are afraid your dreams will create discontentment. When they do, allow me to bring my peace. I’ve done it before and I will do it again. Have you ever stopped to consider that perhaps your visions and dreams actually CAME from me in the first place? Think about that! If that is the case, then it is an act of worship to embrace the dreams I give you and pursue them and trust that I will equip you with all you need to realize them.
– An excerpt from my personal prayer journal.